Progress is a beautiful thing, but in this house it’s fragile and easily damaged. Progress means hours when I feel almost normal again, when my anxiety levels go down, and everyone else in the house perks up too. And yes I’m having to write in riddles and hints, but I did promise that this blog would focus mostly on my disabled daughter B and myself – and not on my other children – so I can’t tell you exactly what’s been happening.
But I can tell you about my other reasons to be cheerful…
My weekend away with B, that I wrote about here.
Rain. Only a little bit of rain, but I was so glad to see it, as I was beginning to worry if it would ever return! I know that sounds crazy, but extreme weather events have become the norm even in Ireland, and nothing seems certain any more. Not even rain. (Of course some people were complaining.)
Getting out for the whole day to attend a country funeral to provide support to a couple of friends. It was a risk, but everything at home was okay while I was gone. On the same day I agreed that B could go to the circus after hours without coming home from her day activities first. And that went well too.
I bought a different newspaper at the weekend to begin doing crosswords again. All the challenges this week (to counterbalance all the progress) meant that I am still trying to finish the first one. But it’s a start.
B and I joined the first outing of the Rainbow Junior Arch Club’s Summer Programme last Friday and we had a wonderful time exploring the Airfield Estate and Farm in South Dublin. We visited it once before a couple of years ago, and I wrote about that visit here.
B and I went house hunting again, and with new bungalows as rare as pink butterflies, I decided to look at new two storey houses with large downstairs toilets and room to install a lift. And we found one. Of course the developer is only interested in selling to first time or cash buyers, but I’m not giving up just yet! At least I’m finding options.
But the butterfly of hope is fragile and elusive, and I’m always afraid it will fly away if something changes. This week though I will try to be cheerful and enjoy the way things are right now.