The Great Escape

It felt like some crazy dream. A road trip across the country with my severely disabled daughter in 30 degrees of heat, on the day the schools broke up.

For a weekend break.

My first break for seven years.

I didn’t believe it would actually happen until I pulled away with the van stuffed with enough emergency items to see B through the Zombie Apocalypse, never mind two days in Co Kerry. Of course I forgot most of my clothes…

When I got the invitation my instinct was to say thank you, but I just can’t manage it. As usual. But I have wonderfully persistent friends. They had a house with a downstairs room where B and I could sleep, as well as the essential downstairs toilet. They didn’t ask can you go, they asked when can you go .. And then my eldest said of course she could manage everything at home for a couple of days.

And so I found myself on Friday afternoon cruising down the motorway, sunglasses perched on my sweaty nose with the music turned up and B dancing in the back.

Almost five hours later we arrived to a wonderful welcome and food on the table. And so it continued – I barely lifted a finger, except to look after myself and my disabled daughter, and obviously that wasn’t always easy in a strange house not designed with wheelchairs in mind. Apart from that it was everything a break should be: great company, good food, beautiful scenery and glorious sunshine. Poor mobile coverage forced a digital detox, but I didn’t really miss it as there was always someone to talk to and something to do.

Killarney looked stunning in both sunshine and clouds, and there were plenty of wheelchair friendly rambles and places to visit. On the Saturday night we went out to dinner at a hotel overlooking the lake, and there was no hassle including a severely disabled young adult at the table. In fact no fuss was made at all, she was treated the same as every other guest. It was very refreshing.

The break reminded me again that with a little help, it IS possible to have a good life with a severely disabled young adult.

Trip To Killarney Collage June 2018

 

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A Rant about Carers Week #RealCarersWeek

Many people say that becoming a carer has made them a better person: I’m sure that can be true, as I saw it within my own extended family.

But I don’t think it’s made me a better person. Instead it’s highlighted my flaws: my lack of patience and tolerance, my self centredness, my incompetence in the face of overwhelming domestic duties and repetitive paperwork. Sometimes I strive to overcome these failings. At other times I rage against the unfairness of it all. I rage at being forced to live a confined life of fear and anxiety. My skills getting rusty, my brain less sharp, my mental health deteriorating.

Sure, I do my best. I do all that self care stuff: I exercise, as I’m sure you’ve noticed! I do social media – often the only opportunity I have to use my communication skills, and writing a successful blog post – or even just a popular tweet – gives me a boost that I badly need. I practice being grateful, I make myself do things that are challenging. I keep going. But it’s not always enough.

It’s not just me either.

There was a Carers Week competition to win a break at a luxury hotel in rural Ireland. Wonderful, you might say. Well deserved (especially if my friend @autieland wins, and I hope she does because she really deserves it as you can read here) but it also rubbed salt into the wounds of those of us who cannot get away from our caring duties, because those we care for have no respite. And even those families that have respite, may not be able to get it when they want or need it.

You see it’s different for everyone: some carers manage to lead relatively normal lives – and I used to be one of them – holding down jobs, perhaps enjoying holidays, a busy social life. Even then they may be facing challenges they don’t talk about. But many of the family carers I know live lives so difficult that the rest of us sometimes wonder how they keep going at all (no choice is often the answer to that question), perhaps due to the number of disabled dependents they care for or the severity of their difficulties; perhaps due to totally inadequate housing, no support, poor health, chronic pain, being housebound for months or years at a time, lack of money, lack of interest, feeling ignored, unappreciated and left behind by the rest of the world. It’s a recipe for despair.

The manicures and other little treats being offered to carers are thoughtful attempts to mark Carers Week, and undoubtedly appreciated by many. But those carers stuck deep in the trenches may not be able to leave their duties to enjoy a little pampering, or they may feel under so much pressure that doing something for themselves becomes just another item on the ‘to do’ list. And a set of pretty painted nails would not last long with the amount of hand washing that many of us have to do each day for hygiene reasons. It’s just not worth it.

There are no easy answers: my disabled daughter has been given a ticket to see Taylor Swift on Saturday, with support and some friends. A great break for me, you might think. Not quite. You see I won’t really be able to relax, as I will be dropping and collecting her, I need to be on standby in case she wants to come home early, and when I do bring her home there is a long bedtime routine that includes hoisting her onto the toilet and her night time stretching exercises that help her to sleep. We are both going to be exhausted! But we’re going to give it a try anyway. Oh and I forgot to mention I will still have one person to care for while she’s out….

What can I do except keep trying to raise awareness? This week I’m joining @Carer49 and tweeting using the hashtag #RealCarersWeek to highlight issues and possible solutions. I hope someone will read them, someone who can take action to improve our lives and the lives of our dependents. It’s hard to hope though, when UK Councils chose Carer’s Week to announce further cuts to vital care services. Does anyone else think that old, sick and disabled people and their carers are actually held in contempt by many people in today’s world? Yes? Not just me then.

As you can see, becoming a carer has not made me a better person, but I feel better after that little rant, and I promise my normal cheerful service will be resumed soon..

Reasons to be cheerful 20.4.18

I almost stopped writing these posts: I’ve been doing them for about 9 years in different places, and I thought you might be bored with them at this stage. Especially as there is definitely repetition – after all, my life is not exactly exciting any more!  Yet every post still seems to get a good reaction, so here we go again for another week with some daily tidbits…

Friday: B may be grown up, but it’s important to get her out of the wheelchair every day. So floor time is still part of the daily routine. And on Friday I remembered to put her on her tummy, which helps with her head control: I haven’t done it in a long time, and luckily she enjoyed it.

Saturday: Chatting with other parents in the lovely garden of the Carmichael Centre in Dublin while our teenage sons and daughters attend a therapeutic drama session. Best of all, B was happy to join in.

Sunday: Doing the 10K Great Ireland Run in Dublin’s Phoenix Park with my pal Lisa (and clocking up 31,400 steps over the day). It was wet, cold, windy and wonderful!!! A 3 1/2 hour escape from all my worries and I look 10 years younger. Even in a bin liner 😂.

Me collage Candi 17.18
Left hand photo taken at Christmas when I hit rock bottom with stress and exhaustion

On a more serious note, it shows the value of respite, and how difficult life can be without it.

Monday: I discovered a new season of my current favourite TV series: Marvel’s Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. Please don’t judge me, it’s a little bit of escapism for an hour after B is in bed – and I suspect I may view Coulson as a surrogate father figure 😂

Tuesday: Zumba 💙

Wednesday: The arrival of sunshine meant I got some work done in the garden.

Thursday: I rewarded myself – and the rest of the family – with cake following a painful physiotherapy session. I have to get my shoulder problem fixed as it’s preventing me from doing some of B’s essential daily stretching exercises.

Friday: A morning meeting that promised much. Now to see if it delivers!

Head over to Lakes Single Mum for more reasons to be cheerful.

 

What’s It All For?

Everything is a struggle again. All the juggling, dealing with the on going stress of the problems I’m not writing about on here, trying to put my positive face on in public. The weeks slide by without progress or resolution. I feel my family has been abandoned, and I know so well that I’m not the only one.

And if I can’t write about the only topic that consumes my thoughts, how can I write at all?

I just haven’t got the heart to write yet another cheery post about our Easter outings. I planned to, I really did. I even took the photos and saved them in a little folder on my desktop. All ready to go. I might even give you a sneak peak later.

I was brought up to believe that I could follow my dreams, achieve whatever I wanted if I was determined enough, and of course those beliefs were backed up with the support of a cradle to grave welfare state: you paid into it when you were working, and used the services when you needed them. You earned enough to be able to buy a house, you could get a mortgage because your job was permanent. It may have been pensionable too. The security this gave people of my generation is impossible to overstate. But even for us, it’s starting to falling apart, just as many of us need the services we thought we were funding through our taxes when we were younger.

Perhaps it’s better that my children have learned the hard way that life is mean, life is tough, and you have to make your own luck, that the world is becoming a place where one needy group fights another for scarce resources and publicity. Except that resources are not scarce at all. The world is more wealthy than it’s ever been. But those who have the wealth are reluctant to share it with others.

I wish I could accept my life with grace, as so many others do who are dealing with far more difficult situations, and accept that it may not change, because that’s the way the future looks. But I was always greedy, I always wanted more out of life. More and then MORE again 😀. But it feels as though I’m getting less and less, that I’m trapped in a cage, partly of my own making. Yet people still ask me where I’m going on my holidays, even though I haven’t had a foreign holiday since 1996 (not a typo). People still ask me about respite, even though my disabled daughter has had only a handful of days over the years and none since 2015. My other qualifying child has never had respite. People still ask me how work is going, even though I lost the job I loved during the Economic Crash in 2008. People assume I get lots of support, yet the last time I felt that someone was really sharing the load was summer 2011 during a weekend at my Dad’s house before he succumbed to his final illness. Life is about to get trickier too, as my eldest and only non-disabled child begins a new job away in two weeks, though she may be home at weekends.

So I am finding everything very difficult once again, but I didn’t want this blog to become a moanfest. There are too many mixed messages on mental health for me to feel comfortable sharing my worries all the time:

Avoid negativity, they say: and I don’t want you to feel you have to avoid my blog.

Cut negative people out of your life, they say: yet I would hate for my friends to feel they had to do that to me.

Tell someone your problems, they say: yet even counsellors need counselling to cope with what they hear from clients, so who would want to burden their friends?

I heard a desperate woman on the radio in January who was facing repossession of her home and she told no one of her plight, “because everyone has their problems”.

Yet we’re told it’s good to talk…

Some people manage to talk about their problems in a way that makes you feel sympathetic, makes you feel privileged that they chose you as a confidante. Some don’t: I’ve called it emotional dumping, when someone pours out all their problems to you, and they feel better afterwards, but leave you feeling stressed and exhausted. Though airing my problems usually makes me feel worse. Except on here, for reasons I don’t understand.

The Government tells us to eat healthily, take exercise, switch off our phones etc as though our mental health is entirely within our control, and basically our responsibility. In fact many people struggle with mental health issues as a result of Government policy. Medication and counselling are pushed on people, yet they just deal with the symptoms, not the cause, which is often the lack of state services and support!

All I can do is keep going, doing lots of self care, even when I don’t feel like it, even when it feels like just one more thing on the desperately long ‘to do’ list. Even when I wonder why I am bothering at all.

So what’s it all for? I’m lucky that my disabled daughter’s zest for life, and love for those who love her give me a reasons to drag my weary ass out of bed every day. Because I am tired, physically, mentally and emotionally. But you’d keep going too, wouldn’t you, for this?

Bronwen in Farmleigh 2018

 

 

After I die

After I die, what will happen to my disabled daughter B?

B, disabiity, after i die

Yes, there are lots of people who love her and appreciate her, including her brother and sister, but who will take care of her? I don’t want her siblings to take on that responsibility, so who will make sure that she keeps smiling? Who will do all the things that I do?

Will she feel abandoned by the one person who was always there for her?

Can you explain death to someone who is severely disabled? Or will she just sink into sadness until I am completely forgotten?

What sort of life will she have? Will she be able to live with friends? Or people that she finds entertaining? Will anyone even consider that? Or will she be expected to be thankful for what she is given… After all, God forbid she should be entitled to anything. No worse insult these days it seems.

Will anyone have the patience to help her to feed herself? To clean up the mess afterwards? Or will they just feed her quickly, because they are under pressure to move on to the next person.

Will she be an embarrassment? She can be very loud, especially when she is laughing with delight. Perhaps her carers will think she is too noisy, and keep her away from other people. Take her to out of the way places where she won’t bother anyone. She’ll be quieter then too, and maybe they will think that she doesn’t enjoy outings, and stop them completely. It would be easier, after all.

Will anyone bother with her toilet training? Especially as she will always need nappies. Perhaps she should just ‘go’ in them. That would probably save time and money. Never mind her dignity and all that. Never mind her pride when she uses the toilet correctly. And then there’s health and safety. The equipment I use is old and needs replacing, but it seems that there are no companies that provide toileting equipment for floppy adults…

Will someone make sure that she is entertained: give her something to hold, something to watch. Or will she just be left to sit. Then she’ll be quiet, she’ll retreat into herself, she’ll be easy to manage.

Will she still get chocolate cake? Or will someone decide that she needs a healthy diet. Even though she adores sweet things.

Will people still talk to her, when her replies will not be in words?

Will she have loving caregivers? Or a succession of poorly paid and overworked helpers who do not have any time and energy to give to her.

Perhaps I am just being arrogant and unfair if I think that no-one else would look after her like I do – and I’m very far from perfect. I’ve seen comments like that about mothers like me. Perhaps she will adapt to whatever life throws at her, and use her winning smile to get what she needs. Perhaps I am wrong.

But you know what? I don’t want to risk being right. I’m her Mum, I don’t believe that I can be replaced. So I can’t die, I just can’t. At least not for a very long time.

(An old post updated)

 

The fun begins… At least for us

The crisis cauldron boiled over on Friday and put the fires out, at least for now. So life has been a bit calmer here, which is a reason to be cheerful in itself, but there’s more. Last Saturday was St Patrick’s Day, as I’m sure you knew! But the significance for us is it means waving goodbye to hanging out in warm, dry snow free shopping centres, and hello to lots of festivals and other entertaining events that will pack out every weekend from now until November.

Of course we were promised the son of beast, and the weekend was indeed cold, and snow arrived on Sunday, putting a chilly damper on our plans.

But Saturday went well. Really well. My new secret parking place in Swords remained undiscovered, and we only had a ten minute walk to the meeting point for people taking part in the parade. This year, we were offered the chance to ride on the little train with the children from the Snowflakes Autism Support Group, and to my surprise there was a compartment at the rear of the train with a ramp for wheelchairs.

So B rode the train past cheering crowds doing her best princess impression, and enjoying every minute.

Princess B, St Patrick's Day, Swords Parade

And I thought how lucky and blessed we both are.

I was reminded of that thought on Wednesday at a focus group I attended about community living for people with severe/profound disabilities and complex medical needs (a horrible mouthful, I know).

I’ve often wondered, silently and out loud, why I never see other people like my daughter in public. I’m beginning to get some answers.

One reason is scarcity: there’s probably no more than a few thousand people in the whole country with a similar level of disability.

Then there’s the problem of incontinence and the lack of changing places toilets, that I *may* have mentioned before. For us that means we only leave the house for 3-4 hours at a time. For others, it means they barely leave the house at all.

Food can be a problem too: some people need a mashed or liquidised diet, which can be difficult to find (I have resorted to mashing up McDonalds chips in emergencies!), others are tube fed or peg fed, not very compatible with leaving the house.

Children and adults with complex medical problems such as intractable epilepsy may be at risk without their medication or specialised equipment, and may rarely venture far from home, school or day service.

Others display behaviour that doesn’t conform to social norms, which may mean they are not happy out, and are happier staying at home.

Sadly, the conclusion of the focus group was that community-based living may never be a practical option for some disabled adults, due to the huge costs involved of making everywhere suitable for everyone, the huge education requirement that everyone has a basic understanding and acceptance of every disability, and the dangers posed to those whose health is fragile.

So I counted my blessings once again, that my disabled daughter can enjoy life in the community. And it means I can too.

R2BC at Mummy from the Heart

 

Battling anxiety by scaring myself silly! #timetotalk

It’s no secret that the ongoing family crisis here has had a negative effect on my mental heath. I’ve never suffered with anxiety like this before. The effects have been frightening, and that resulted in a negative feedback loop where the fear made me more anxious. I retreated, avoided people – even friends – avoided situations and activities that suddenly seemed too difficult. From talking to friends, some of this may be age related too – my peers are experiencing similar issues – a loss of confidence, feeling anxious about everyday chores and activities, afraid of doing something stupid, of others seeing it, of feeling stupid yourself and therefore wanting to avoid anything that might be challenging.

But if you know me at all, you’ll also know that I hate feeling fearful, I hate feeling weak, I hate feeling vulnerable, so I searched around my head for strategies that would improve things. And I remembered the advice that facing your fears – in a gentle way – should make it easier to cope with them.

So for the past week, I’ve been making a real effort to get out of my comfort zone.

‘Me’ time was prescribed for the weekend, and I was lucky enough to get a sitter for Sunday morning, so I went for coffee on my own and then to the gym. With no worries about having to rush home after training, I tackled the showers. It’s only taken me two years… But in all fairness, communal changing rooms are very intimidating for women of a certain age, especially those who don’t have time to do all the grooming and tanning and exercise that’s expected! And I had stupid little worries about whether the lock I had would work on the locker, would the key be safe while I showered (I had visions of it being washed away…). All my fears were misplaced: no one  noticed me at all and my plan to manage the locker/shower process worked perfectly.

Then there was another incident in the saga of the fridge, that I’ve mentioned more than once over the years! On pulling it out one day, I was horrified to see dust almost filling the vents in the back. Dangerous, I thought. Luckily Google came to rescue and told me that I needed to vacuum the fridge coils. I’d never heard this before, and it took me a few days to tackle it, especially as you have to remove the back cover of the fridge which says ‘Technicians Only’ in very large letters. But I did, and nothing blew up or went on fire either!

Cutting and taking up winter leggings for B – because her legs are a non standard length and only summer leggings come in capri length. (Her clothing issues are worthy of a whole blog post in themselves –  I promise to write it one day 😀). I was afraid I’d ruin them of course, but I didn’t, and she’s wearing them today. Result.

Back in the gym again, and there were two young men demonstrating their handstand skills. It was impressive, and you couldn’t miss the demonstration either. And you know I’m competitive, right? And that I used to do school gymnastics as a child? And that I can resist everything except temptation? So when I’d finished my essential training (it is essential, it keeps me strong, and keeps my back healthy, so I can carry on caring) I got my breath back and then attempted a handstand, and then two more. I was only able to hold them for a couple of seconds, but still! The guy behind the desk winked at me on the way out ha ha #55notdeadyet.

Finally, I have agreed to go for talking therapy, to keep others happy, but very reluctantly. Here’s why:

It eats into the free time I don’t have.
It requires me to talk about all the crazy stuff that has happened in my life. Again. And I find that traumatic.

So you could say I’m scared of counselling too, so that’s another reason to do it. And because today, February 1st, is #timetotalk day, I really should make the effort to talk about mental health, and I hope you do too.

Time to talk

Because scaring myself has made me feel better, this will also be my reasons to be cheerful post for this week: read more over at Lakes Single Mum.

 

 

Are you shocked at the idea of sleeping in the kitchen?

This is a post about middle class privilege, I accept that. But life is not always easy even when you’re not homeless, or desperately trying to find somewhere safe, secure and affordable in the private rented sector.

I know how lucky I am, but I do find life difficult, and it’s only going to get harder as I hurtle towards retirement age. Oh wait, I’m a lone parent carer, so there will be no retirement, and no State pension either.

My current home is no longer manageable, and I got very excited last summer when I saw that a development of new bungalows was being built within commuting distance of my disabled daughter’s adult service. I got to see a sneak preview of how the interiors are likely to look yesterday, and unlike my current home, everything will be flat, spacious, open plan with wide doors, warm, secure, easy to clean and maintain. I also got told that all the bungalows in the development have been appropriated by the local council for social and affordable housing, so I can’t buy one. Do you know how often new reasonably affordable bungalows are built in the Dublin area? Almost never. I totally understand that the people on the local housing list are in greater need than we are, but does the local council need ALL the bungalows? Because if something doesn’t change I’m going to burnout eventually and then the State WILL be left with a hefty annual bill for my children’s care. But does anyone join the dots? It seems not.

To rub salt in the wound, there’s an article doing the rounds today about the 13 most depressing rental properties in Dublin that highlights the unacceptability of sleeping on a sofa bed in the kitchen.

Because that’s what I have to do now. To make sure I wake up and get up to meet my daughter’s needs during the night. And I was very grateful to the friend from whom I bought the sofa bed too.

But it’s not really sustainable long term. Or perhaps you think it is?

After all, I’m only a carer.

new home, disability
B was very taken with the house we saw yesterday that illustrated what the bungalows would be like

 

 

Celebrating carers who always put others first is a dangerous message

Once again I’m seeing red at the headlines around the Carer of the Year Awards. Always putting others first is not a good long term strategy. I know women who’ve died young because they were too busy caring to get their health needs met, let alone anything else. If you’re a carer for life, as I am, you have to look after your physical, mental and emotional health in order to keep caring without burnout. But these constant media messages about selflessness put huge pressure on carers not to look for help, and relieve society of the guilt they feel about not offering it — with some exceptions, of course.

As I am totally overwhelmed right now, I am going to recycle another old article, that says a bit more on the same subject, with apologies to the organisers and to those who do enjoy these awards.

When you become a carer, everything changes. Not just your own life, but society’s expectations too. No matter what you were like before, you are immediately obliged to take on saintly qualities and become endlessly patient, loving, energetic, unselfish, undemanding and uncomplaining, with a beatific smile permanently plastered on your face. Don’t believe me? Look at the Carer of the Year Awards. Now obviously I have huge admiration for the winners, they manage the most challenging situations and care for the longest number of years. But what do these awards say to the rest of us?

Keep your head down, keep caring and if things get really tough, you might get a day out at an awards ceremony in 30 years time.

Don’t complain, don’t look for help, there’s many people who are much more deserving than you.

You made it through the day? Congratulations on “surviving”.

Having special children makes a family special (well actually it’s made me cross, fat, sick and tired).

You think your life is difficult? Well guess what, it’s going to get harder and you will still be expected to keep going.

“I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you think you can’t.” Except when you actually can’t.

Yep, these are the messages that we hear all the time. They may help carers to keep going, they may find them inspiring. I understand that, I really do. But sometimes they just make me feel like screaming…

In the words of the song, Is That All There Is?

Is getting through another day all that we have to look forward to? Well I think that carers deserve better than that. I want more, both for me and for the other carers that I know. Somewhere out there are carers whose lives do not resemble those of the award winners. I want to hear about them.

Where are the stories of carers who have made a conventional success of their lives? 
Who have careers, who set up businesses? 
Who live in nice homes, enjoy hobbies and nights out, have great respite?
Whose children are settled in quality residential care, and who don’t feel guilty about it and are not ashamed to say so as they know that they’ve made the best decision for their family.
Who go on holidays, for goodness sake? 

Yep, maybe they needed a lot of help to achieve these things. So let’s celebrate the people who helped them. The services that make a difference. Let’s tell the world that many carers need that help, very very badly. They are not bad people. Everyone has a breaking point. Congratulations if you haven’t reached yours yet. But do not judge those who have. It could be you tomorrow.

 

 

The meaning of minutes

I’m sure I read somewhere that the most powerful person at a meeting is the one who writes the minutes. Especially if the minutes are the only record of what was said and agreed.

That theory crossed my mind this week when I received a set of bland minutes from a meeting I attended on Monday night. They cover the facts given and the actions proposed, but say nothing about the words that were spoken. Are all minutes like this? It’s sad really, because the passion and inspiration from many of the speakers is completely absent: the minutes do not tell the full story.

I’m sure you won’t be surprised when I tell you that it was a disability rights meeting. Maybe a little surprised it involved an evening trip across the River Liffey. And perhaps amazed that instead of trying to find a sitter, I brought my two younger children with me. Including my disabled daughter B, even though I guessed that some might consider her vocal contributions disruptive. She should be heard and she should be seen, and I won’t let anything get in the way of reminding people that her needs are important too. Even when those needs may be a little different to those of the general disability population.

It was a small meeting: despite all the publicity, only about 30 people were present – out of the 300,000 or so who are affected by disability in Ireland. It just shows how tired and unsupported most disabled people and their carers feel.

But I really enjoyed it, because there was lots to inspire and digest:

A factual mini presentation about disability housing issues from David Girvan, and an impassioned plea for real change from Aisling McNiffe were among the parent and activist contributions that were preceded by some powerful words from the main speakers of the evening.

First up was Dr Tom Clonan, author, security analyst and busy advocate for his disabled son Eoghan. Here is just some of what he said:

The number of organisations agencies etc is mind numbing and little or no accountability. The situation is getting worse and worse. Disabled people becoming homeless is a policy. Levels of suffering completely unnecessary.

Meanwhile the Government has 44 media advisors. Choosing to ignore us. Because they can.

We need to make this a general election issue, and reach out to the able community.

We can make change against resistance: I know how to fight, and I will spend the next 25 years fighting.

👏👏👏👏

Graham Merrigan is a wheelchair user who lives an independent life and described his issues as mostly in relation to infrastructure, taxis, misuse of parking bays etc.

Local PBP Councillor Annette Mooney raised the issue of the still unratified UN Convention on the Rights of People with Disabilities (UNCRPD), and told the meeting her belief as to why it has not happened here, when almost every other country in the world has ratified:

They won’t ratify it because you’d be entitled to things. The main reason for not ratifying is money.

Why am I not surprised by this opinion?

Finally the gathering heard from Senator John Dolan, who is also CEO of the Disability Federation of Ireland.

On the Budget and ratification of the UNCRPD:

State signs the international treaty, and it’s like getting engaged. Ratification is the day of getting married. Ratifying means your starting a progress of implementation. It doesn’t have to be right straight away.

On community living for disabled people:

Some HSE staff are getting people out of institutions , others are putting them back in. You can protect an institution, it can be seen, while cutting a home help is unseen. We’re fighting to get people living in the community but as it stands the community is a very vulnerable place to be.

👏👏👏👏

If you only read the minutes, you’d think that attending this meeting was just a boring duty. It wasn’t. It was a pleasure and it was worth it, and I came away feeling less alone, and more understood. The minutes had no meaning for me. The quotes I’ve shared here give just a taste of what the meeting was really all about.

Note: I typed copious notes throughout the meeting and I hope I have reflected its spirit here. I should also mention that People Before Profit TD Richard Boyd Barrett was the MC for the evening.